Hi, my name is Gwen and I’m addicted to Lunesta and Ambien. I have been taking a sleeping pill for the last two and half years. I started having sleeping problems during my husband’s third deployment. I’m not sure what happened or why my body decided to stop sleeping, but it did. My doctor at that time prescribed Ambien and for a year I slept at night. Sometimes I would sleep walk, sleep eat, do other things in my sleep, but I felt rested in the morning so I continued to take it.
When I switched doctors she was quite surprised that I had been on Ambien that long. Another surprise was that while I didn’t wake up for many things, I ALWAYS woke up when I heard my kids. To me, that was a good thing, my mothering instincts rose above the pills. This doctor wanted me to try Lunesta, my trainer suggested Ambien, my friend suggested valerien tea or pills. I tried all of them and only the Lunesta and Ambien knocked me out when I needed to sleep and didn’t leave me feeling shaky in the morning. When I moved from CO to GA the doctor there gave me my six months of Ambien at a time and I went on in my normal.
Then when I moved back to CO from GA the new doctor disrupted my status quo sleeping habits. He is a wonderful doctor and seems to know his stuff and really care about his patients. He is however and evil minion and wouldn’t give me anymore Ambien. He was surprised I’d been on it so long and told me how it wasn’t good for me and gave me Lunesta. It worked, but he only gave me one month worth. He wants me to work on getting my body into a nighttime routine that encourages me to sleep normally and without additives. I wanted to slap him and tell him that my sleep habits are never routine. My husband comes and goes and with him his night time movie watching.
When I’m alone, I go to bed, all is quiet, I can sip tea and read in peace. When husband is home, he has to watch a movie or show or something so he brings his laptop into the bed and I either watch with him or listen to it. I have successfully kept the television out of my room, but it’s a no go because he has a million of his favorite shows and movies on the laptop. On a side note, I talked to one of his buddies who shared a room with him for a while on the last deployment. He said that he had a time getting used to hearing husband’s movies and learned to live with it. Not so for me though, nine plus years later and it still drives me crazy. I end up shutting off the computer when I hear him snoring.
Here I am on day two with no pills. I have been trying melatonin with valerian tea and a great oil from doTerra called Serenity. It is suppose to calm you and relieve anxiety. It works well for relaxing me and encourages me to rest. I slept horribly last night. I realize that at 31 I need to have a sleep pattern that is healthy and chemical free. However, I just want to go to sleep and get a good night’s rest because my days are so crazy! I’m going to try and stop my dependence, but I can already tell it is going to be tough.
I have been married to the Army and been through more deployments, TDYs than I can count, for the last nine years. I need to take control, stop blaming my crazy life as an Army spouse and learn to lay down and go to sleep. It sounds so easy and yet it is my constant battle.