I have to choose, should I have radiation or not. My situation is considered a “gray” area. My oncologist and radiologist both said no radiation, initially. After the mastectomy, chemo and hormone therapy the oncologist said I probably didn’t need it. Of course, the radiologist said he would suggest it.
It improves my chances of not having a recurrence anywhere in my body by about 3%. It improves my chances of not having a recurrence in my chest wall or lymph nodes a little more than that, but less than 10%.
My question is: Is it worth it? Is it worth 5 days a week, for 6 weeks, potential reconstruction problems, side effects, just to have a small percentage added to my survival rate? I say no, but there is that nagging feeling that I’ll regret it. An hour later, I still say no. My husband says yes, but he’ll support me no matter what.
I’d like to say no, take the hormone therapy for the next 5 years, go to my check-ups, and put cancer behind me. This is the most difficult decision of my life. This sucks. Cancer sucks.
UPDATE: This morning I called my nurse navigator and told her I decided not to do radiation. It was a quick conversation, she didn’t try to change my mind. The decision is made and I’ll live with it. Did you get that? I’ll LIVE with it! I’m excited to move on with life, to live, to get healthy and stay happy. Thanks for the support, encouraging words, and prayers. Very thankful to have amazing friends to share my life with.